This is something I’ve never written about or shared with just about anyone. And now I finally have some perspective as to why that is. When I started this site just over two years ago I finally was embracing my diagnoses and trying to make something positive out of it. I wanted others to not feel as alone and helpless as I had.
The moment I started this site was also the moment I stopped being in denial: this was my first step in what I believe is a crucial part of every Lyme Warriors recovery; Acceptance.
The first 3 months after my diagnoses I was in complete and total denial. I am ashamed to admit how ignorant I was. How close minded and sure of myself. Sure that I was right. Sure that this mystery ailment was mono or a prolonged virus or a result of exhaustion and that it would go away tomorrow, or the next day, or the next day.
I don’t think I am alone in this. I don’t think anyone wants to face the facts when it comes to this sort of diagnoses. This murky undefined world and all that comes with it when you’re stamped with this diagnoses. The never-ending controversial aspects, the stigma, the treatments that sometimes do more harm that good, the treatments that do help but cost you and your family money that you’d hope to use for something else, and my favorite, the doubt and disbelief from people everyday that Chronic Lyme even exists.
Taking this all into consideration it is easy to understand why one would go into denial. Who wants to face all this overnight? But I believe that accepting and embracing your diagnoses and the temporary bizarre Lyme world that you are living, is the first healthy step to recovery.
So here’s my video to Lyme Chicks and Lyme Guys out there. Accepting this doesn’t make you weak. It doesn’t make you fragile or beleaguered or pitiful. It makes you incredibly strong and resilient and tough. It makes you a fearless fighter.